Reminds me of Ketchup

Those of you who are old enough to remember the old Ketchup commercial, the theme of the commercial is anticipation.  That is what my life feels like right now.  Counting down months, weeks and now into days is always somewhere bouncing around in my brain.

I wake up in the morning and am looking forward to that day when I get to drive for 10 hours, and then wait for another day until I get to watch my husband walk out of the door and into freedom.  Then my mind starts swirling about what we will get to do next.  Shopping, lunch, and then trying to catch up with years of separation.   Going to bed at night, crossing one more day off the list and moving one day closer. 

Some days it seems like it is still so far off and other days it seems like it is right in front of us.  I am finding it hard to focus on my day to day activities without looking forward to the future.   In my head I am planning a family picnic and opportunities for extended family to get together once he is home even though it is still months out. 

I can not begin to describe all the emotions that I deal with on a daily basis.  I am excited one minute and nervous or anxious the next.  It is an up and down roller coaster with the stomach butterflies included.  So much is up in the air and we are just counting down the days.  I really hate to focus on months in the future, but once the spring sports schedule is in full swing the days will pass much more quickly.  Keeping my mind busy is the best remedy to help keeping my mind distracted and keeping it locked on the here and now.  It will make time pass much more quickly.

My direction for the next few months will be working toward a positive reunion and a happy homecoming.  Jobs, cars and income will all come secondary to working toward a harmonious reunion.